i am feeling really discouraged and terrible tonight. there's still been no word about my job, and it's now been over five weeks since my interview. i could go into the explanation of why, but it basically boils down to bureaucratic bullshit. add on top of that the fact that i'm pretty sure my former boss is just looking for a reason not to give me ( Read more... )

( family and feeeeeeeeeeeeeeeelings )

SCUSE ME FOR BEING CAPSLOCK HARRY HERE BUT IT JUST OCCURRED TO ME THAT INITIALLY MY LJ NOTIFS WEREN'T ARRIVING BECAUSE OF A GLITCH WITH LJ BUT THIS HAS GONE ON WAY TOO LONG FOR IT TO BE LJ'S FAULT AND LO AND BEHOLD MY SPAM FOLDER IS FULL OF ALL MY FUCKING NOTIFICATIONS FOR THE PAST MONTH WHEN I'VE BEEN CHECKING MY EMAIL MOSTLY ON MY BBERRY AND IT'S ( Read more... )

still alive. ._____ ( Read more... )

by 4:30 tomorrow, if i'm not crying like dane in my icon, i'll be shocked. only cus i'm so fucking exhausted. but tomorrow i get to come home and do nothing! nothing, i say! but drink beer and write and take care of some things i have to do. did a teeny friends cut tonight, just people who i don't exchange comments with anymore. also finally laid ( Read more... )

so, this weekend happened. there were things that were god-fucking-awful-hope-to-never-repeat-this-feeling-as-long-as-i-live-dear-god, and there were things that made me supremely grateful for how lucky i am in the people i've chosen to fill my life with. still, it's sunday night and i think it's a good thing there isn't more strongbow in my fridge ( Read more... )